Greetings from Babyland! It’s amazing how your life really does go from being all about you to being…well…very little about you. I know we’ll get some of that independence back as she builds up her own reserve but right now it’s Lola’s world and we are just living in it. Although it’s still the toughest thing I’ve ever done we are getting some of the sweetest smiles every day now and that actually does help a lot. I feel like one of the reasons it’s so hard at first is that you get very little back from Baby until they can start to communicate and engage with you a bit more (laughs, smiles, coos, etc.) so sometimes it can feel like you are on the hardest babysitting gig ever for a cute loaf of baloney until those developments kick in. She’s starting to be able to sit by herself a little bit more in a swing or on a blanket which is helpful. Still no longer than 5-10 min max but it’s a start from crying immediately every time you put her down. Girlfriend loves to be held!
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I posted on Instagram that it’s so hard to be kind to myself in this season of life and extend the necessary amount of grace, but I’m trying the best that I can. Sometimes that may mean buying myself my favorite flowers, painting my nails, taking a soak in the bathtub during a nap, splurging on a new clothing item that make me feel better about all the post-partum body changes (these jeans are my favorites right now and I’m awaiting these shoes anxiously), or just forgiving myself for snapping at Todd ten times an hour. I’m far from behaving how I want to all the time (extra shoutout to hormones here!) but it’s good to remember that it’s the overwhelming situational stress that’s behind those snaps and my real personality is still buried in there somewhere.
One thing that makes life a lot easier is using a carrier when I want to be hands-free. Ergobaby asked if I wanted to try their limited edition Keith Haring carrier and it has turned out to be a lifesaver. Todd and I both use it around the house as well as for outings to the park, coffee shops, etc. and I know I’ll use it a lot once I can muster the courage to go grocery shopping with Lola (that will be a big accomplishment for sure!). The whole thing is basically adjustable from every angle so it fits your body really well and the padded straps and weight distribution make it easy on your back too. I’m obsessed with this black and white Haring print and it goes with everything since I wear black and white 99% of the time anyways…
Our friend Rachel made us the sweetest pastel rainbow quilt (so cute!) and we’ve been using it and this adorable swan playmat for tummy time. She likes when you lie down next to her to keep her company…We also took her on her first big trip this past week to Pittsburgh to see my family and friends. We drove Todd to his Mutemath show in Columbus first so Lola got to be at her first concert with Daddy, but as you can see above, she was not in the mood for it or her baby headphone ear protection either. She was actually already extra fussy before the show and long after so I think she just wasn’t feeling well. We spent the majority of the show in the green room or walking the adjacent parking lot to try and calm her down- poor baby!! It will be a few months before she goes to her next one so maybe she’ll be in a better mood then. We also got to take her to the pool with my parents and grandma and that was so fun to see her in her little swimsuit and her reaction to the water. She likes her baths so I thought there was a good chance she would like it, and while she was a little skeptical, she lasted about 15 minutes before crying so I would call that a success! I actually just bought this inflatable pool for our yard to try swimming at home so I’m excited to try that with her too.
All and all, we are still adjusting to so many things but I’m trying to remember and store up all the sweet little moments that are a part of everyday as well. Even in the hardest times it’s good to remind myself that we are so lucky overall and babies don’t keep forever so I have to get in those fleeting moments while I can…
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There are SO many new things to get used to in the 4th trimester of pregnancy besides having a new baby in the house. The mood swings, the tired days and nights, and the changes in your body as you recover from the 9 months you just spent pregnant as well as the birth experience. I’d been too busy at the end of my pregnancy to think about what I really wanted my postpartum style to be afterwards but I figured there might be some changes to what I would normally choose based on how my body looked and felt after baby. Now that I’m on the other side of that, I have been noticing that I want more of certain types of styles based on how I’m feeling and I thought I’d share a few of my favorite finds with you so far. I’m a big fan of tall heels but if we are out with Lola I’m a little uncomfortable carrying her with shoes that high so I’ve been wearing shorter chunky-heeled strappy sandals instead. They are perfect because I get a little height and still feel a bit more put together than a flat sandal but I don’t worry about tripping or falling if I’m holding her. I’ve also decided that high-waisted shorts and jeans are definitely the right move for me for this season of life with the postpartum belly- they are like wearing a support girdle if you get a good fit and they help define more of a waist as well (I wore this support girdle for a month after birth, so helpful, and I’ve been wearing this one out since it’s much slimmer under clothing). Since I’m snapping up high-waisted bottoms, I’ve been looking for cute crop tops as well and I love the tops that have knots tied in them (or I just tie one myself if it’s a longer shirt). A few button-up shirts seem like a good idea for nursing access (those can be easy to tie into knots as well and make them into crop tops) and I’ll always love easy casual dresses and jumpers for summer. Thankfully, I know that accessories like fun sunglasses will still fit me just right and I thought a small cute fanny pack might be good to take some essentials in when I don’t want to take my whole purse and the diaper bag. I’ve managed one trip to the mall so far and while it was more exhausting than usual to be sure, it felt really good as well to get a few items that made me feel cute and like my old self again. Gotta get that mojo back one day at a time!
Can you believe it’s been a month since Lola was born? I think this has definitely been the longest month of my life in a lot of ways (being a new parent is HARD you guys) but we are hanging in there the best that we can and getting to know our sweet baby more and more every day. From what our midwives and doula have said there are a lot of things that tend to be more delayed when you have more of a traumatic birth experience and aren’t able to be together that first day or two (more on that later, need to type out my birth story soon!). Delayed start to breastfeeding can cause some hurdles and even the bonding process takes more time when you can’t be together right away after birth but we are taking each day at a time and slowly figuring it all out together. Lola had her lip and tongue tie lasered open last week and I actually think that helped to activate more of my “Mommy brain” in the bonding process since it was so hard to see/hear her be in pain for that first day. We are still relearning how to breastfeed with better latches and are trying lactation consultants, chiropractic care, and cranial sacral therapy as well as doing tongue and lip stretches every three hours around the clock for another two weeks so the opened areas don’t grow back together—it’s a lot but we’ll get there! I definitely have days where I feel like I’m just barely keeping my head above water (especially when new little fun things like plugged milk ducts appear, UGH) but I just keep repeating to myself what all my Mom friends are telling me…it won’t be forever and that this is the hardest part. Even with all the struggles though I’m still trying my hardest to feel so grateful for a healthy darling baby and soak in all the sights, smells, and sounds of a newborn in the house. Those sweet snuggles and tiny fingers and toes won’t last forever and we are starting to see the beginnings of smiles which is really exciting. All in all, life is very different and very difficult at the moment to be honest but there are some pretty dear moments as well and I’m excited to see all that this next month will bring…
Wow, what a crazy whirlwind the last couple of weeks have been! I can’t believe that Lola is two weeks old and I can already tell that she looks a little bit older from when we first brought her home (she’s lost that swollen newborn look for sure). She’s starting to keep her eyes open for longer stretches at a time and we can already tell she’s got the sweetest little personality.So far the round-the-clock breastfeeding has been the biggest thing to get used to for sure. My milk didn’t come in until day 7 but our pediatrician said that was not uncommon since I had a more stressful labor experience and we weren’t able to be together for the first 24 hours with her in the NICU. We have had some easier and harder days for sure (and she may have a small tongue tie which we’ll have to look into a bit more to verify) but we’ll figure it out eventually! In the meantime having some of my registry items like my hands-free pumping bra, Undercover Mama nursing tanks, and nursing camisoles have made nursing around the house a bit easier. I also have a bunch of various nursing bras that I wear with deep V shirts to make boob access easier as well. I have been wearing a postpartum binder everyday since being home and I’m planning on getting a pair of high-waisted leggings like these once I retire the binder (or for when I want to go out of the house without it on…).First bath!! She cried the whole time but looked so cute in her little bear towel!We just got to a point where Lola will take a few of her naps in our DocATot and it’s been a lifesaver to have her spend a few hours self-contained without having to be held while sleeping. I also got this beautiful pink cover for it as well because, well, why not if it comes in pink too, right? PS. She only has a blanket over her legs if I’m nearby, otherwise we do a swaddle as a blanket…My adorable parents have been here helping out and it’s been such a lifesaver for us. The tearing and stitches I had have made recovery harder so having help with meals and baby holding while I nap or take sitz baths has been such a blessing. My dad read a story to Lola a few days ago and she totally listened to the whole thing and looked at the pictures when he showed her too. So cute!We had Todd’s 35th birthday this past week and while our new life didn’t exactly lend to a full-on celebration, we still made sure he had a few special things to mark the occasion (like his favorite dessert after dinner). We’ve had some of our wonderful friends bringing us meals this past week as well to help out and we so appreciate those kind efforts—if you ever have a chance to bring food for a new Mom and Dad, do it! They will love you forever!
So many big changes lately and while I’ve had some of the hardest days on record, there’s also been a new sweetness and joy added to life as well that I could never have quite imagined. I’m planning on writing out a birth story at some point and I’ll let you know what I used (and didn’t use) in my birth bag as well. We’ll see how many long naps it takes to get all of that done! 🙂